6:51 pm
fickle pickle
numB
the medication's making me hazy.
i can barely feel myself.
it's like i've become limp all of a sudden.
and i don't have the drive t go t sch anymore.
i don't know why.
maybe it's a good thing.
so i won't dread leaving cj so much if i have to.
chinese newyr's like this weekend.
haha.
it feels so surreal.
it's coming so fast.
it doesn't feel like it at all.
i never did really like CNY anyway.
i am weird.
i don't even know what i'm typing.
i pray for courage that i'll be able t face tomorrow
and the day after,and after and after and after..
i'm going insane with all this numbness.
`living in my own bubble.come burst it.
5:29 pm
fickle pickle
SHAME.
i am such a blur blob.
i actually circled "male" on the surf&sweat form.
tell me i didn't.
did i,really?
i don't recall.
booooooohoooooooo.
if i really did then..
ohnooo.just tell me i didn't.
"how now,brown cow?"
lynette wld tell me that.
why do i always land myself into such situations?!
and all ronald can do is laugh his ass off.
he's my living nightmare!
i live a life of eternal embarrassment.
1:52 pm
fickle pickle
insecurity. i don't know why,bt suddenly,i feel so scared of the world.i don't want to grow up.my morale is so low right now.you do not want to talk to me.i want to cry so badly.but the tears won't come.eeerrrrrrgggghhhh. i hate myself.
10:06 pm
fickle pickle
randomology
so,i woke up today feeling like shit.
stuffed nose with a really horrid sore throat.
thus,i didn't go for ODAC's heritage-urban hunt thingie.
i wish i went!!! :'(
bt anyhow,my nose started t clear and my throat became better later in the day.
decided i shouldn't break my promise t christy,so i persuaded my dad to let me out of the house.
btw,it took hard work t talk my dad into letting me out.
which meant that i had t down his horrid tasting herbal soup.
alright,it's good for me,but it tastes like...
you don't want t know.
where was i?ohyes,i headed t town.
christy&company decided t watch the 3pm show which i cldn't make,
so i called rose and met up with her and her mum.
shopped for my mum's birthday gift.
got her a silver bracelet with her name engraved on it. :D
and she LOVED IT.
yayys.
basically.that's my day.
how unexciting.
and ronald chan is giving me sore eyes with SICK empticons on msn.
HAHA.at least he's funny. (:
one last thing.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY DEAREST! :D
11:32 pm
fickle pickle
cHaSE
odac odac odac
run run run
lecture lecture lecture
doze doze doze
but i still love it all.
because of 1t10.
because of bestie,rose.
because of jasmine.
because of christy.
because of sondra.
because of jerome.
because of ian.
because of cheryl.
because of petrina.
because of larissa.
because of michelle.
because of EVERONE.
and oh.
because ronald and lynsy anthea lim shao fen are so funny.
i love school.
9:13 pm
fickle pickle
in and out of this world
well,it's been so long
and now,it's twothousandsix.
how i wish time stood still for some moments.
moments where nothing's in your head except
entire bliss.
moments when you look into the other person's eye
and think how long they'll be staying around you.
moments where goodbyes are exchanged
but it isn't really goodbye yet.
good things always have to come to an end
when you least wanted it.
it's unfair.
then again,when is it ever fair.
anyhoo.rose and i are in cjc.
like what are the odds?
haha.
i'm glad though.
and uber relieved.
i thought no one i knew well was gnna go cj.
bt it just happened.
rose and i even got into the same class! :D
cj's funnn! :)))
i mean,the people there makes it.
i love the class(1T10)!
and i like the people in ODAC.
yipee :)
:.:
we scanned through
the open scene.
the gaze;
we both caught-
we both held.
we both smiled.
i waved.
you waved.
my heart skipped.
did yours?
i looked away.
5:33 pm
fickle pickle