10:33 pm
fickle pickle
realize
by colbie caillat
Take time to realize,
That your warmth is, crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you
If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.
It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.
If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized
missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now
10:32 pm
fickle pickle
pinocchio strings i think this cny rocks my socks ((:turned out wayyy better than i expected.lots of visiting to friends' houses,good company and all :Danw, valentine's arriving.lonely hearts club!hahahacan't wait for jumper.yeahh ((: tug my heart.this time it's the end, for sure.
12:07 am
fickle pickle
my country-side
yesterday saw one of the worst reunion dinners that i've ever had.
why? Because i went home to find a good portion of my clothes MISSING.
how? My mother threw it away.
for What? Due to the fact that i have not folded them, YET.
wtf right?
i couldn't help but let the hot tears roll.
yup, i'm inappropriately emotional, but still!
so we headed to grandfather's place for reunion.
It wasn't much of a reunion anyway,
but that's the way my family works.
Everyone starts eating at different times and we all don't sit together at a round table scooping steamboat and stuff like how society says we should.
Instead, we eat in front of the tv, by the window, or wherever; some corner maybe.
Then by the time i'm done eating and waiting for about fortyfive minutes,
only then my cousins start filing in.
see, what reunion dinner right?
it's really just d.i.n.n.e.r itself.
As a result, i was moody most of the night.
didn't talk much, so i decided to help my grandma to clean up and pack the leftovers.
it was therapeutic in some sense.
this way, i didn't have any obligation to make small conversations with irritating aunts who keep comparing which cousin is taller.
(it sucks cos i'm the shortest cousin; even standing at 165cm, i'm made a dwarf)
Makes me want to stuff oranges into all my aunts' mouths.
Alas, the night came to an end and
Thank God my daddy decided that we should all return home early.
So, after such a night, reunion dinner anyone?
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today.
today was a much more beautiful day (:
woke up early and drove to Mua in Malaysia.
i love the drive.
cos it's just me, my ipod, the scenery and drifting in and out of sleep.
the journey took about 2hrs and then we finally arrived at the little kampong house across the cemetry.
It's a little awkward; seeing all these people that i only see once a year,
finding it hard to converse because they speak mainly chinese and my chinese sucks.
However, they were all really warm and affable (:
For example, the aunts usher us into the dining area to eat like A LOT of good stuff!
Had really good vermicelli, mock fish, huge sweet&sour prawns and yada-yada.
i'm definitely putting on weight this lunar new yr.
so anw, this year was different compared to the previous ones cos this year,
uncle john drove my brother and i to Mua town to see what it was like.
it's really quite cool.
feels like Singapore from a social studies text book which shows 30plus yrs ago!
then, like, the only shopping centre they have is really small!
two or three floors only.
and when you walk along the streets,
you'll see a lot of men in big groups walking arnd like they're in some 80's movie.
you don't see many girls walking around though.
it's amazing.
cos looks like m'sia has a lot of foreign "talent" too.
all the men walking down the street i mentioned are foreign workers.
i predict that they're probably lumberjacks or construction workers of some sort.
anw, we didn't stay in town for long.
but i really enjoyed the short trip down,
plus singing elton john and robbie william's songs in uncle john's car was pretty fun (:
later on, i tried riding a SCOOTER on my own!
haha, damn exciting! but scary too!
seriously heart-racing and adrenaline-pumping!
okay, i think i've had enough for one day.
shall stop here.
but all in all, this new year wasn't too bad ((:
happy lunar new year to all!
p.s. this morning i woke up and found my clothes in a black trash bag.
my mother lied to me ):
what a bad joke.
9:52 pm
fickle pickle
step on it last week flew and this week will too.faster please.let's fly faster so i won't even know my bearings anymore.cos it's harder to think with a spinning head.and that's what i need.stop thinking.there's nothing to it.i doubt there ever will be.i want to go trekking on the 24th feb.but i guess it's too late.i regret saying i'd go.or do i?
11:44 pm
fickle pickle